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  • Fleamarket – fashion graveyard

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    Today in my Purpose-Driven life book I found following passage that resonated with me and reminded me of my regular visits to the fleamarket: We never really own anything during our brief stay on Earth. God just loans the earth to us while we’re here. It was God’s property before you arrived. Fleamarket is full…

  • Waking up in someone else’s life

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    Have you ever had a feeling that the life you live is not really your own? That hobbies, jobs, friends you have don’t reflect your personality, but rather what is societally acceptable? That your real personality never had any chance to grow and develop because it was too different from what school or parents desired…

  • Mind-numbing boredom and some Bible verses

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    Probably everybody feels boredom from time to time. But after a successful spiritual reconnection to my own emotions the intensity of boredom reached new highs. The painfully empty, slow minutes disappear without a trace, nothing changes. In this state, it seems that no measure of time and no events can ever change my unbearably useless…

  • Forging discipline despite mental exhaustion

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    Since I decided to publish at least one small article every day I have to write something down today. Feeling tired and sad doesn’t particularly help in this task today. But I guess that the whole point of doing a task regularly is to do it regardless of external circumstances. Some pressure is necessary to…

  • Flea-market as creative outlet

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    Flea-market is like an Open-air museum to me, which never fails to surprise. And whats even better you can buy the rare historical pieces there. Although, 95 percent of all the objects sold there are garbage waiting it’s “recycling” in some buyers attic, the remaining 5 is definitely worth the digging. For example like this…

  • It all worked out well, but where’s happiness

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    The negotiations at work went out better than expected. It seems we will develop some agreement which suits both sides. But what do I feel about this negotiation attempt? I’m glad it’s over and that I don’t have to mentally prepare for different directions the dialog could develop. Also it’s great that something is finally…

  • Miss the old job

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    I really do miss it, at least some parts of being a geophysicist. Like having actual self-respect because you do a job you believe in. The occupation serving practical purpose in a great industry. Not some abstract data hoarding at obscure university which I facilitate right now. But now when I start remember the long-gone…

  • One stupid task per day

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    I can’t stand tedious, monotonous, dull tasks which are so pleasant to avoid and forget until the consequences start pounding on my head. For some reason these tasks always look bigger than they are. At some point I would try convincing myself, that these tasks maybe are not that important anyway, so it’s fine to…

  • Excitement seeking

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    I constantly have the desire to try out everything: The list goes on and on. While somehow it’s very exciting to think about doing all of these tasks the reality is quite different. In reality after a couple of tries at something I would stuck at some necessary, but maybe less exciting routine. E.g. soldering…

  • Resolving religious conflicts

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    I naively assumed that Baptist and Protestant churches, in their essence, are all about freedom from religious authority. After all, the founder of Protestantism, Martin Luther, challenged rigid religious authority embodied by the Pope. The very kind of despotic authority exemplified by the Catholic Church, which requires formal ritual honoring and public submission. But today…